This is it

I have been lately dreaming of the aunt I lost in April. I have never visited her gravesite, and I believe this is why I cannot sleep at night and not think of her. I do not want to go alone and I've asked someone to come with me, and hopefully she can. The next few weeks are going to be rather hectic, I have two tests to study for within three days of eachother, as with all the usual work and family obligations. As well as going to the hopsital this Friday. I am trying to think positively about everything, but I feel drained.

I will tell you one thing... I am not depressed. I just don't have a reason to smile.