You give me a topic and I'll write about it for days

To be honest I feel unfulfilled and I am distancing myself from my closest friends, making the mistakes with them that I shouldn't just so I don't have anyone else to lean on. I can tell you thousands upon thousands of instances where without purposefully doing so, I have still maintained a sad distance from those I love. I had one of those weird almost pragmatic conversations with someone as I was walking to my car after work, I spoke to this security guard for a good 25 minutes in this type of hellheat that is Louisiana's summer about my life and where I was, and he did as I. I displayed a somewhat odd bit of honesty in this conversation with a near complete stranger that I do not even share with you. The first ten minutes I was just waiting for the polite exit so that I could continue on with this blase day of mine, the next 5 I was imagining scenarios that would force him to shut up and go do something and then what was left I actually cared to talk to him.